Sucky Day.

Today was a sucky day. I'm gonna have to drop out of college cause I'm losing six grand in scholarships. Which I'm alright with that cause I freaking hate school..It's just the getting bitched at by parents about not thinking about consequences and bull shit like that..I've been thinking about the consequences since over a month a go so they can just fuck off. Getting a job is failing hard core though which is the suckiest part. And I'm trying super lots at getting one and people just hate me or something. The one redeeming quality to today is that I've started the process of gauging my ears! They are at a 12 or a 10 right now (I borrowed my roommates gauges and we're not sure if they are one or the other lol) ..gonna move them up to an 8 when they heal up. Alright..that's pretty much it..my not exciting, terrible day...

Much love.

Home.

I'm at home now. Not exactly pleased about it either. But since I have to be here, I might as well try to enjoy it right? Well it's my birthday in two days. Kinda crazy. I'm gonna be twenty. I have accomplished nothing with my life. Not even a fucking job to my name. I'm leaving school. Can't even say that I have that going for me. I was happy for once..and then I had to come here. Home is one of the most stressful places I am forced to reside in. My parents and I don't exactly see eye to eye, and yet I am still forced to talk to them and return home. Well, I highly doubt that will continue if they find out what plans I have in store for my future. But whatever, that's a different story. Just thought I'd check in and say what's up at the moment. Gotta keep up this blog thing. Been slacking on it. Sorry.

Much love.

Meh

Life feels like a downward spiral at the moment. My mother just added unnecessary stress onto my already stressful life. She called the RLC (which is like the person in my apartment building that is in charge of making sure everyone is all ok and shit). I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU. FUCK OFF. The reason I'm not calling home is not because something is wrong, it's because I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU MOTHER. End of story. I don't like talking to you because you don't want to let me make my own decisions. You want me to choose what you want. I don't respect you because you don't choose to think for yourself. You choose to think what people and books tell you is correct. Choose to not be ignorant. THINK FOR YOURSELF. Maybe then I'll respect you. Religion is not all important. Learn about other things.

Been awhile.

Sorry, its taken me this long to post again. Scott basically stole my computer. But whatever. I'm glad to be back on. Umm..not much has been happening really.. Scott, Owen and I went to Uwajimaya today and got foods and made super good stir-fry. Scott got Heavy Rain. Such a good game. Even IIIIIIIII can play it lol (even though he stole my save file and played the last half of it..). Life is kinda shitty right now. Rae is "gonna study hard tonight" while she's been out all day doing whatever and going on a date. She just got back. And she's all happy and shit. I don't think she's gonna do shit tonight. AND she made Owen and Scott leave so she could study "cause it's finals week." Now I'm probably not gonna see him till after my birthday. Which is two weeks from now. Like really? How can you be that bitchy? Have I ever been that inconsiderate to anyone, let alone my roommate? FUCK NO. Do I take responsibility for my portion of the keeping things clean around OUR apartment. But fuck no. She's lazy as fuck and doesn't do shit. If she had a job and got food and whatnot then that would be a completely different story. But no. She is just as jobless as I am, but I do ALL the work. It's so fucking frustrating. She's still not doing shit. FUCK YOU. I'm getting the hell out of here as fast as I can.

sleepy.

Just got back from Scott's/Ellensburg/EMP. I'm really tired so I'll blog about it in the morning.

Much love.